Wednesday, November 7, 2012

As I put pen to paper..

The moment the pen is put to paper, why do I feel so at peace with myself? Like a huge burden is off my chest and I feel nothing but lighter and happier inside when I pour my heart out in the form of my black ink on the white paper sheets, with every word I write?

I travel through these pages.. these blank pages just waiting to be filled with words, sentences, paragraphs and punctuations.. They take me everywhere and anywhere I want to go. Just me, myself and my thoughts. Escaping away from the gravity of this word that pulls us down toward everything materialistic, dragging us to the painful reality, the sad realisations of what life really is.. that when it comes down to it, it is either happiness or sadness. And one cannot exist without the other.

Why would one want to be in a world where we are in fact not the ones who make our own choices, but they are made for us,  just an unbearable set of heavy loads that we are asked to carry all of a sudden, at any moment, and mostly when it's least expected.

Hence, I take my weapon in hand, the one mightier than a sword, and I am afloat. Rising above everything as soon as it is in hand.

It takes me through time and space, through worlds and spaceless spaces, through timeless memories, through faded nostalgic moments.. It fills my heart with indescribable emotions, unbinding me from my inhibitions and I feel as elated as a deer running through an endless field of fresh green grass. The grass blades tickle my feet and the dew sends pleasing tingles down my spine.




I am free.


Monday, November 5, 2012

Sinful thoughts

I run through the tunnel
Eternal darkness
It grows in on me
From every corner,
Surrounding.

In my head
Are images that terrify,
Thoughts unwanted.
I try not to think,
Stop the flow.
I have no choice but
Surrender.

I try to free myself
From this monstrous grasp
Filling me with
Negativity.

I fight for my life,
My breath, my soul
No I don't want to part
With them.

Why does this fear 
Engulf me in?
Why do I feel
Like I'm fading
Into non existence?
Why do daunting images
Always include
Me without you?

I see a light 
The end of the tunnel.
I fear
It is burning fire.